Tag: #atozchallenge

J for (being) Judged – Please tell me then, what makes a good mom?

Posted on by Nandhini Chandrasekaran
judging moms

Before I begin to crib and cry about being judged about the mother I am, let me confess, I’ve done my part on judging mothers, as well. When I had travelled in trains before I had children, looking at those children who wouldn’t sit, who wouldn’t stop whining, who would make loud noises, I used to think about their mothers, “What in the world is she doing?” The day when I travelled with my son in train, I understood what they all were doing – trying in vain to control their children, feeling embarrassed for their behaviour and feeling humiliated for being judged by people like me.

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I for Insecurity – Are my children safe?

Posted on by Nandhini Chandrasekaran
praying mom

“I am not God, I am not a doctor, not even a fortune teller. How can I be sure if my baby is alright?!” was one of the doubts I used to have when my first baby was born. This tiny human being was my responsibility. I am supposed to be aware of everything around him and for him. Is his cradle a safe place? Are there chances that he might fall off from it? Can I make him sleep next to me on the bed? Will I unknowingly rest on his hand in sleep? Is the floor clean enough to let him crawl? What if that imaginary, from-nowhere, dangerous insect nears him? How long should I hold him when he tries to walk? If he falls down and there’s blood on his lips, should I take him to a doctor? Can I make him sit in water for long while bathing? Will he catch cold? How much should I cover him when we go outside? How much heat, how much cold, how much this and how much that?!!!

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H for Helplessness – To see him struggle but can do nothing

Posted on by Nandhini Chandrasekaran
mom comforting son

There was a day, when I was waiting outside his school, hearing to his continuous loud cries, praying God that it should stop sooner and controlling to prevent that drop falling off my eyes. Finally, I hurried to one corner of the campus, faced the wall to let those drops fall out. I have been with him through every second since he was born. For the first time, I wasn’t with him when he was crying. For the first time, I wasn’t helping him when he his little heart was struggling. For the first time, he must have felt bereaved by me. It was miserable! I couldn’t do anything; I felt so very helpless.

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G for Guilt – 5 killer guilts of motherhood

Posted on by Nandhini Chandrasekaran
guilty mom

In spite of all that motherhood does to us and no matter what we do for the kids, the feeling of guilt of not doing something right or enough is inevitable to mothers. Over a chat about the series of posts on motherhood which I am doing everyday, one of my fellow mothers said, “One big suggestion, make it G for Guilt.” And I replied, “Yes, it’s already on my list.” The guilt of motherhood seems universal! It might not be identifiable outwardly. A mom might run through the day as if she has been perfect all day, however she would carry a secret guilt while watching those little faces sleep peacefully. During bedtime every night, I would ask my son, how much he had liked me that day. He would tell me honestly the good and the not-so-good things I did in the day and I would promise him that I would be all good the following day. After he dozes off, I would look at his serene sleeping face, relive the guilty moments of the day and promise myself to be a better mom the next day.

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E for Embarrassment- My 5 most embarrassing moments as a mother

Posted on by Nandhini Chandrasekaran
Embarrassed mother

Do you know how it feels when your kid digs his nose in front of your guests and the guests give you that so-you-are-the-mother-of-this-boy look? My little one isn’t a messy one but I’ve had my share of awkward moments as his mother. Here are the top 5 in the list:

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D for Disorientation – How did the cooker weight reach the lego box?

Posted on by Nandhini Chandrasekaran
Confused mom

All of us experience continuous flow of thoughts in our heads, don’t we? When this thought process is intermitted by a phone call or a door bell, we might come back to the same line of thoughts or pick up a new one. With either, the continuity of the flow of thoughts is reclaimed. However, when attending to babies or looking after little children, especially those who are talkative, our thought process gets disturbed frequently leading to a miserable discontinuation of the flow. The demand to catch up on more than one activity at the same time, in addition to the suspended thought flow can sometimes make a mom confused (atleast, if ‘disoriented’ sounds exaggerated). Hence, when moms say that they are busy, they actually mean they are multi-tasking. When they say they don’t have time for themselves, they mean that it has been a while since they got lost in thoughts. Here’s a 10-minute example of what happened today morning.

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C for Cheerfulness – It's a lovely sunny morning!

Posted on by Nandhini Chandrasekaran
Happy mom with son

The silly laughs we have together while cuddling up during bedtime, the spectrum of expressions I bring into the voices of his book characters, the temptation to grab his ice cream after I’ve finished mine, the negotiations and deals we make for each other, the ‘Wows’ and ‘Good jobs’ for every little achievement he brings to me, the ticklings, the giggles, the hide-and-seeks – motherhood is also about reviving and completing the bygone childhood.

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‘The Very Many Emotions of Motherhood’ – #AtoZChallenge 2017 Theme Reveal

Posted on by Nandhini Chandrasekaran
AtoZ blogging challenge

Starting from tomorrow, please join me in an emotional odyssey of motherhood, for the next thirty days. Beginning from 1st of April until 30th April, there will be one blog post a day on this blog. And all the posts will revolve around motherhood. We all know that a mother is an embodiment of love, an epitome of sacrifice, a this of that and a that of this! Yes, we’ve seen, read and heard all the nicest things about her. However, seldom do we understand the frustrations behind her patience, the playfulness behind her maturity, the sadness behind her joys and so much more hidden emotions of motherhood. As a mother of two, as a stay-at-home-mom and as an ever-learning, ever-evolving mom, I am looking forward to share my A to Z everyday emotional rides, through my blog, in the next thirty days.

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